The Black Forest

Random blaghness...

Persona Obscura...

Oh the web we weave. Or rather the weaving the web makes. I'm constantly inundated with Viagra, Cialis, Acai, Getting my Bachelor's Degree, and Rolex watches in my inbox. My anti-spam catches most of this, thankfully. But it makes me wonder..."Is that what we want? A hard penis that lasts for hours, losing weight by Amazonian berries, a paper degree for a hope of a better job, and a really expensive watch that isn't really expensive? Is that our culture in an email-nut-shell?"

I sometimes wish I could not be found. To be left alone in obscurity. Sometimes. *laughing* I certainly don't want to be left alone if I write blogs, participate in Facebook, Twitter, (MySpace is Dead), and whatever other thing I can do to connect with people. But sometimes...mmmmm.

In this same internet can be found precious jewels of insanity or boxes of just plain Coo-Coo For Cocoa Puffs!

The wonderful crazies that I love and that make this world a better place. Captain Beefheart, Daniel Johnston, Brian Wilson, Wild Man Fischer and my new favorites Elton and Betty White come to mind. There are obvious many more and more who would argue about my short-top-of-my-head list. So be it. My point is that, if I really have one, is that "going it alone" in the dark edges of our minds is dangerous, and many have fallen of the the edge, but there can be a beauty and fire of a billion hearth fires, of a thousand holocausts that can shine on the rest for us and remind us how breath-taking our lives and this world is.

Long live the weirdos, crazies and delusionals. I'd much rather have them than the heartless, greedy, and selfish.


Through the lens...

Ever see the movie camera effect of zooming in and at the same time the camera is pulling away? Hitchcock was famous for it in "Vertigo". Many other directors have used this camera slight of hand through the years. What happens is that the perspective changes with any apparent moving. Of course this is not what really happens, but the illusion of it. It is in this illusion I seemingly live my life. Moving without moving. Change without change. Perception.

Perception is everything and well...nothing. It is not tangible, but in it is the power to change the tangible reality. It is in this that is my reality. This is my power. With a wave of my hand I can change my world. A blink of my eye and what was there is now gone.

I think this is kinda what John Lennon meant by "Mind Games".

"So keep on playing those mind games forever..."

I Had a Milk Farm in Africa and Set Fire to 45's...

I had a milk farm in Africa...I had a milk farm in Africa... Well...one of my friends had a dream I did. And apparently all I cared about was my milk farm. "I'm sorry...but I can't really hang out and talk right now, I must return to my milk farm...the cows need milking." *laughing* Then I was in another dream where I was performing a show and instead of singing songs I set fire to a bunch of 45's on a record player.

Awesome!!! That's a much more fun show than singing a set of love songs! I think I'm gonna book a show right now and perambulate to M-Theory Music for some used 45's!

*sigh*

I can't do it. I can't set fire to vinyl. Even really bad vinyl. Vinyl is made to be played/played with.

Maybe I'm just someone's dream and when they wake up...poof!!! I'm gone. Maybe they're in a coma on life support and I'll be able to live for years and years. Maybe they just keep dreaming about me everyday and when I think I'm sleeping they're awake. Maybe I should just put down the pomegranate flavored gummy-bears because they're laced with some form of sugar THC...

Nah...

Into the Looking Glass...

When someone dies, I immediately look back on my life. What am I doing? Not Doing? Am I happy? Big problems suddenly become small. I do a reckoning of sorts about myself. Michael Jackson...Farrah Fawcett...wow. Damn I feel old. I remember Michael Jackson coming in and single-handedly save the music industry from dire straights (not the band) with "Billy Jean" helped with the cool long format zombie MTV video. I remember all my friends having the infamous Farrah Fawcett poster on their walls to dream and drool over. I didn't, my favorite angel was Jacklyn Smith, then later Cheryl Ladd. So many woman, girls, even all my baby-sitters had the Farrah hair-do. Moon-walking, blond hair flipping, single-glove wearing, wide white pearly teeth smiling wanna-be's came out from all walks of life, all over the world strutting their stuff. It made you smile.

However they lived their imperfect lives, their ripple touched millions of people. I am grateful for my imperfect life and I hope that I can someday "have a justified life", quoting from the Sam Peckinpah film "Ride the High Country".

In the Name of the Father...

Being in a family that split up when I was young. I was bounced back and forth between parents, I watched a lot of television so my parental figures sometimes sadly or happily were old movie characters. My list of fathers were of course my real one, then Gary Cooper, Spencer Tracy, Humphrey Bogart, John Wayne, and Robert Mitchum. Robert Mitchum?! Yes! I know he played a lot of dark characters, or at least one's of low moral fiber, but damn I loved it! He's my favorite movie dad. What does this say about me? Hell....I don't know....and I don't care. Hmmm...sounds like something dad would say. *laughing*

Here are some of my motto's I live by from my movie fathers:

Gary Cooper: "Looked like she was a cold dish with a man until you got her pants down, then she'd explode."

Spencer Tracy: "It is up to us to give ourselves recognition. If we wait for it to come from others, we feel resentful when it doesn't, and when it does, we may well reject it."

Humphrey Bogart: "A hot dog at the game beats roast beef at the Ritz." "I was born when you kissed me. I died when you left me. I lived a few weeks while you loved me." "The problem with the world is that everyone is a few drinks behind."

John Wayne: "Courage is being scared to death... and saddling up anyway." "If you've got them by the balls their hearts and minds will follow." "Tomorrow is the most important thing in life. Comes into us at midnight very clean. It's perfect when it arrives and it puts itself in our hands. It hopes we've learned something from yesterday."

Robert Mitchum: "Every two or three years I knock off for a while. That way I'm constantly the new girl in the whorehouse." "People think I have an interesting walk. Hell, I'm just trying to hold my gut in." "There just isn't any pleasing some people. The trick is to stop trying." "There are all kinds of rumors about. And they're all true. You can make some up if you want."


Happy late Father's Day Pops!